MOVING OUT

why do stars★ fall?

Wow, I have been on this blog for more than four years. Yes, I started this blog because of a requirement in class during my freshman year, but it this page turns out to be my haven for quite some time. I have shared a lot of memories with this blog. I had shared all the feelings a person can have with this blog. And so it is really kinda sad, to move on, abandon this blog and sign up for a new one.


Well, at first, abandoning this blog hasn't cross my mind, until I had the need to transfer my primary email to my gmail, but since google doesn't allow it, I thought why not make a new one and have this blog as it is, reminder of my college years. Getting a new one makes me feel like an adult, like a grown up. And so I am moving out. Thank you for all the readers, the one who stick with my crazy ideas and writings. Now I can say I have readers because for the past four years, today was the only time I get to look at the stats of this blog, and boy was it impressive :) Thank youuu and I hope that you'll get to be with me in my new blog, Rainbow Bridges :)


Rainbow Bridges will be about the grown up me, with all the dramas and rants, and dreams and everything that catches my fancy. So I hope to see you all guys there! :)


Did I say thank you so much?! Well then, THANK YOU SO MUCH! :)

See you guys there! :)

THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED

Disclaimer: This post is all about how selfish I am. And how awesome I am. Get over it. :)

Having a significant other is kind of a problem for me. My friends say I have commitment issues, I mean it not in a flirty way that I want so many guys for me, but in a way that I think I'm losing my independence if I'm in a relationship with a human being. My friends would call me heartless, or cold or a heart breaker... I don't believe them. I always say, "maybe the right guy hasn't come along just yet" And then they would ask, "Look what happened to Touch. It was too late before you did something". And all of us will just end the conversation with a sigh.

Do I believe that the right guy hasn't come along just yet? Maybe. I don't know. What I know is that I have this ideal guy in mind (who doesn't have one?)

Physically, I want a guy who's taller than me, at about five to eight inches taller. He shouldn't be muscular, but someone who's look is between being lean and buff. He must be older than me. He must look clean all the time, he must have a stubble :x Hahaha He doesn't have to be that good looking, I'm not all for looks. But looking like Ely Buendia, Johnny Deep, Heath Ledger, Rupert Grint, Al Pacino, Patrick Dempsey, Sylvester Stallone, Robert Downey Jr or Matthew Goode will be a plus! Hahaha

He must be mature enough to handle a relationship, not like some teenage boy looking for a good time. He must have a stable job (I want an architect!!! Or an artist, or writer), or if he's still a student, he must have a clear direction on what he wants to do in life.

I want someone who's home buddy but knows how to enjoy the outdoor. He shouldn't be addicted to any computer games but knows how to play. I want someone who's into sports, any sports, though I like basketball and football. He must love to read (novels, specially). HE MUST KNOW HOW TO DRIVE. :)))) Also, I want someone who knows how to play a musical instrument, or maybe knows how to sing, or have the courage to sing to me even though he knows he sounds awful. Aww :")

I want a person who's smart and witty, someone who'll make me laugh, and makes me feel that I'm pretty even though I just get out of bed, had a bad hair day or pressured from work. I want someone who'll spend a Saturday night at home with me watching my favorite series. I want someone who's patient enough to understand my mood swings, and embrace them like they're my most beautiful trait. I want someone who will let me do things that I want, and will support me for it. I don't want his world to revolve around me, instead I want him to do his own stuff and will just be thankful that I'm in his life. I want someone who I can be weird and crazy and ugly. I want someone who's romantic in a subtle way but never ever, and I mean NEVER mushy/cheesy/clingy. Hahahaha

That is the perfect person I have in mind. But as I am getting along with life, and encountering a lot of guys who promised everything to me, who told me they loved me, some even came close to that description, I can say that no one loved me truly, with just a snap, and a single "NO", they are ready to leave. And so now, I realize what I really want...

I WANT SOMEONE WHO WON'T LET ME GO.

A-MAN-WHO-CANT-BE-MOVED, I WANT THAT. SCREW THE TRAITS MENTIONED ABOVE!!! (Though it would be nice if you're close to that description, haha kidding) I WANT SOMEONE WHO WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP ON ME. I WANT SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE ALL OF ME, AND I WANT TO FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT HIM♥♥♥

RAMADAN KAREEM!

I don't exactly know what that means, but my mom said it's like have a blessed Ramadan or something, or it's like for us Christians when we always say Merry Christmas. But I'm not sure really!

It's my first time to be in a Muslim country, and so Ramadan laws are all new to me (e.g people cannot eat or drink or smoke outside, shorter periods of work, festivs in evening, and so on and so forth). I don't know how these things work or how they fast, but I know RESPECT. And so, even if I'm not a Muslim, I shall respect and follow all the rules, not just because a police might arrest me, but because I respect Muslim's holy time. Maybe Allah is not the name I call my God, but I always believe in "Different Paths to the Same Summit" (I forgot the name of the philosopher who wrote this), that says, people may have different names of calling God or different ways of worshiping Him, but it is the same God.

And so,

RAMADAN KAREEM!!! :)

(Maybe, it's time I should Google this out)

INDIA

 I suddenly woke up from a deep sleep, still sitting on the plane from Phil. going to Doha. I looked at my right to see my brother still sleeping. I hugged him thinking I should sleep again, but then my mind wandered to what I left... I looked in the window and saw fog all over, I thought maybe we above an ocean or sea, maybe. I looked into the LCD in front of me and clicked the map, and I was wrong, we weren't above the water. Learning that, I looked in the window, determined to see even a piece of light in that land, but I didn't see anything, it was so cloudy and foggy, or is it possible that there's no light in that land. I kept on looking while my mind is wandering...

"...A new life is waiting for me in Doha"

"...I'll be living with Mom, Tatay and Yron"

"...I'm missing Kaye and JC already. Who'll look after them? I pray that they will always be fine"

"...No more hang out moments with my bestfriend K"

and as I was thinking of all that thoughts, tiny drops of water is pouring from my eyes. And I can't stop it, finally when I was able to stop it, I looked up the map, and we're now on top of an ocean. And then I realized,

I CRIED THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE ABOVE INDIA.


Originally written last June 16, 2011

BUM

Ilang araw na kong bum, kabilang sa milyong Pilipinong tinatawag na FRESH GRADUATES. Di na pwedeng sabihing, "bored ako, gusto ko pasukan na" dahil wala ka ng hinihintay na pasukan (maliban na lang kung balak mong mag graduate school agad) at ang summer na ito ay hindi na sem break o bakasyon, phase na ito na tinatawag na BUM LIFE. At dito tunay na nasusukat ang determinasyon mo sa buhay. Tunay na TAMAD na ang tawag sayo kung wala kang gagawin para mabago ang UNEMPLOYED status mo.


Ngunit naniniwala akong bawat isa ay may sariling diskarte sa buhay, maraming dahilan kung bakit marami pang unemployed sa mga panahong ito (nag-aapply lamang ang list para sa mga fresh graduates):
1. Ini-enjoy pa nila ang buhay bago magtrabaho, tipong last summer ang drama, swimming dito out-of-town doon, etc.


2. "Naghahanap na kaya ako ng trabaho" (online submission, interviews, walk-in)


3. "Tinatamad pa ko. Dito lang ako sa bahay, sa kwarto ko, I love my bed."


Technically, kasali yung three sa mga reasons and thank God, di three ang reason ko. HAHAHA. Siguro masasabi ko na andun ako sa 1 and 2. One, dahil plan kung umalis on June for two months (or it depends to those who have a higher power, meaning, mom and dad) and two dahil naghahanap ako ng work, yun nga lang for internship/workshop para di ako bum until June, at sympre dahil gusto ko rin maexperience magtrabaho at magamit ang mga natutunan ko for the past 4 years.


AND  WITH THAT EXPLANATION, MAPUNTA TAYO SA USAPANG INTERNSHIP/WORKSHOP:
Mahirap maghanap ng internship/workshop. Well, for workshop medyo madali lang. Mahirap maghanap ng internship kasi GRADUATE KA NA. Trabaho ang hinahanap ng isang graduate student hindi internship (except for doctors, I guess, di ko alam actually HAHA). Andami mong nakikitang wow, gusto ko 'to, ganyan, tapos sa fill up form, may nakalagay na "COURSE YOU'RE CURRENTLY ENROLLED" o di kaya naman "HOW MANY HOURS DO YOU NEED FOR YOUR OJT" o kaya "NAME OF THE PROF SUPERVISING YOU", etc. Anong isasagot ko sa kanila? Di naman pwede ang isang malaking "N/A". At makipagcompete ba sa mga third years na kailangan talaga ng internship?! Haaaaay, yun na lang nasabi ko


Sa workshop, medyo madali maghanap, gusto ko sana sa mga writing for news or TV or anything related to news in general. Madali maghanap ng mga ganyang workshop, pero syempre lahat babayaran. Eh wala nga akong trabaho, san ko kukunin ang pambayad? Sa magulang ko na naman? Oo nga pinayagan na ko magworkshop ngunit hindi ba mali na humingi pa ng extra pagkatapos nila ibigay ang lahat lahat sa loob ng apat na taon, sobra sobra pa nga. At isa pa, yung mga workshop, iba ang presyo kapag students at well, not students. Wala bang price para sa mga Fresh graduates at gusto pang matuto? HAHAHA, oh well...

Quadri Batch po ako! :)

Basta ngayon, go lang ako sa paghahanap ng internship, there's always a perfect place for everyone, I BELIEVE! :)

Mozilla 4 and things Insignificant

YAY! :"> I'm super kilig when I'm looking at this picture. That was four years of college, not everyone has the chance to pose for a photo for this occasion. :)

UST AB Communication Arts

Hmm... anyway our graduation's on March 31 pa, but tomorrow will be our Bacc Mass! I'm excited! :)
Going out of the Arch of the Century is priceless :) Now I know that the arch myth is not true, so to everyone who doesn't know the story, here it goes...

"There is always a myth about certain figures or places in a school, in the case of UST, it's the ARCH OF THE CENTURY. (It's the one that looks like a passage when you pass by the España street) So, when you start your freshman year in the university, there is this Freshman walk, and you have to pass the arch signifying your entrance and acceptance from the school, and so likewise, graduating students have to pass the arch on the day of the Bacc Mass to signify your exit from the university. And myth says that when you pass by the century, going out, when it's not yet time, you'll be unlucky and you won't be able to finish college in the university (a.k.a debarment)"

So there! It wasn't true, of course. I pass that arch going out, the same day I pass going in, (though after that day I didn't dare pass that arch again) and HOLA! I'm still graduating and I lalalalove it :) HAHAHA

I was kind of down for the past couple of days actually, it's because I lost my dean's lister status, yes, ON MY LAST SEM, and of course I lost my chance of having a laurel too :( Anyway, I cried and mourn enough on that already.

Like what the photo's caption on my fb page: I won't get over .13 for the rest of my life...
On second thought, maybe I will, when I already land my dream job and I already make UST proud!


And oh, this is kind of Insignificant to everyone. And I just want to tell you that I love the Mozilla 4! :) It's like Safari and Chrome combined but better (Do I get something from Mozilla team for promoting this? And sorry Safari and Chrome, upgrade your browsers too, then maybe I'll shift)

IS THERE SOMEONE LAZIER?

OHGOD, it's 1:23AM (+8:00 GMT) already, and I don't feel like sleeping, the reason?

TINATAMAD AKONG MATULOG.

Damn straight. Oh god, is there a human being more lazier than me? HAHAHAHA, anyway, just because I don't feel like sleeping, I surf the net, to my heart's desire! =)) So blogspot dear, bear with me :)))))

Oh I have a story, I want to call it a love story, but ugh it's not. Anyway, here it goes... I feel that I like this guy, and mind you, this guy is a god! Just everything a girl wants in a regular guy, so anyway, I thought I like this guy, but actually I'm not sure. I mean he may like be back, which is one in a hundred and one percent, or he may not. The issue is, I don't feel like I really like him, my point is, I think I don't know the feeling of liking someone anymore... or maybe I just don't see someone my type. Anyway, end of story =))) HAHAHAHA I know, loser story but I guess it's worth telling.

Yesterday, (oh I mean the other day because it's already a Friday) Last Wednesday, I can say that it is one of my happiest day this year(it's only March, so I expect more. HAHAHA)! Spent it with friends, kumain, or lumamon is a better term, then watched Just Go With It. (YES I'M AN ADAM SANDLER FAN GIRL), sobrang chill and kwentuhan! Haaaaay

So there, maybe now I can try to sleep. Last shooting day tom and I say goodbye to college works! #thankyouGod!



PS. My mom's the sweetest, she made me a pre-grad letter, which of course made me cry! 27 DAYS BEFORE GRADUATION!!! :)