YM, LSS and FL :)

like the sun will rise in the morning sky
you know that i am here to stay forever
~LSS again :)

My second and probably the last (just probably) blog I wrote for YOU ... until you didn't personally know yet that the YOU I was referring to is you ;) (so maybe, there's more to a come, a million blogs perhaps, if you know it na)

12:35am...

12:36am...

12:37am...

Okay, I don't know what to say, right. So probably, I'll just relate how coward I am for not having the courage to say this to you, bastard *grin*

My friends keep bugging me on telling you that I was in love with you, so so in love, if you may ask.

I had this YM conversation with noelle, she's broken (I think) at that time and she wants me to fight for this F***'n love :))

Here's the glimpse of what we talked about:

noelle (31/03/2009 8:57:43 PM): nu ka ba
noelle: kailangan lumban
noelle: hahah !!!
mhemhe : korek
mhemhe : go lng ng go
noelle: HAHAH
noelle: kaya ikaw
noelle: ipaglaban mo na din
mhemhe: tama
mhemhe: this tme i will
mhemhe: chos
mhemhe: ewan noelle
mhemhe: pero tama nman kasi
noelle: ahaha
noelle: ano ka ba
noelle: magaling ako sa love
noelle: hahah !!
mhemhe: kapag may way pa, go lng
....
noelle (31/03/2009 9:04:02 PM): GO lang
mhemhe: tama, go lng
mhemhe: taena nia
mhemhe: effort to ahhh
noelle: sabay mura eh hahah !
noelle: chill lang
mhemhe: oo nga ee, chill nga lng
mhemhe: ego ko ee
mhemhe: kung ksma ko si shine kkntahan n nman ako nun ng kismet
mhemhe: "pride no longer has rooooooom in meeee"
noelle: jusko talgang yun ung kanta mo ah
...
mhemhe (31/03/2009 9:09:53 PM): jusko kung gumwa ng lab letter
mhemhe: ehdi andmi ko na ngwa nu
noelle: eh di cool
noelle: parang si brooke inipon niya lhat
noelle: pero sinulat niya
noelle: at least may labasan ka ..
mhemhe: ayooooko n ng gnun
mhemhe: gnun ako kay touch ee
noelle: oh sotty
noelle: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAHHHAA!!!
mhemhe: ayun ngstates na at lhat nskin p rn mga letters
noelle: ay eh mali ak dun dapat
noelle: bngay mo ..
noelle: padala natin para magablik
mhemhe: huli na ang lahat
noelle: eh di wag mong hayaang mahuli ngayon haha
noelle: UNAHAN MO
mhemhe: cge nga
mhemhe: weh????
mhemhe: teka, ndi ko pa kaya
noelle: walanghiya
noelle: kayanin mo
noelle: haha
mhemhe: naiipon pa ko ng energy!
noelle: ano ka ba its now or never
noelle: kasi baka sa pagiipon mong yan mahuli ang lahat !
mhemhe: bukas na lng gabi na
noelle: kaw talga
noelle: excuses
mhemhe: hmmm...
noelle: payt payt
mhemhe: tatandaan ko yan noelle dear

-until now, fighting is just in my head ... payt payt says noelle, but until now tsss... COWARD :)))

And Sunshine's (my bestfriend) significant other, Shobe, always reminds me to risk and never be afraid. And here's another YM conversation (Well. I do think that I improved on this one, I think I gained a little courage for saying this)

shobe (16/04/2009 10:45:04 PM): about pla your fears, prang paglipad lang yan e. takot kasi masaktan pagpatak mo. pero isipin mo nlng kung gano ksarap pag nakalutang ka at hindi lahat nbbgyan ng pagkakataong lumipad. ung iba, di pa lumilipad babagsak na kgad. takot ka bumagsak kasi masakit. ska mo na un isipin. lipad muna! yii cge.
mhemhe (16/04/2009 10:48:31 PM): ill let you know if im flying na, i know when that time comes, ndi ko na need sabhn, kasi mgkkta na tayo sa taas. wag ka mgaalala, ndi na YATA ako takot, lumipad ... umaakyat lang ako sa masmataas na floor para mghanda sa pglipad. a fall from the 2nd floor is the same from a fall to a higher place. if I fall, let it be from a higher place. see you there, shobe ... SOON, iknow thanks
shobe (16/04/2009 10:49:38 PM): aww. NOW THAT'S WHAT IM TALKIN 'BOUT!

And I have lots and millions of text messages from closest friends to wait for him :( God!

Whatever happens, I want YOU to know that I'm here and I hope there will come a time that I can sing this to YOU

I sooo love this song...

Your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the ONLY other half that makes me whole :)

But right now, all I can sing is the never-ending Sway of Bic Runga and this one...

baby someday ill find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you dont hear this song
i guess you'll never know

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

Much love,
- (insert the name you used to call me)