And so you're back. Maybe not back to let me feel butterflies in my stomach, but back to ruin the order of my very existence. I miss you. Or so maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm the one back to let you feel I'm here, still here. I miss you.
I don't even know how or where to start saying this, how I came back to thinking that I still like you, oh F. Yes, shit happens. I woke up today, thinking that I am still capable of staying, and I go through the day thinking maybe I'm just confused, and I don't know why people are blogging on how they feel, and guess what? they're feeling the same way, I don't know why the book I'm reading reflects what I'm feeling! Talking about coincidence, or maybe like what my best friend says if you don't know how to handle a situation read a book, you'll find there the answers you freakishly need.
I don't want to be back or I wonder maybe it's hard for me to be back because I can't accept that I haven't left, even for a moment. And now, things are not normal AGAIN
(how many agains do I have to undergo for you?).
An old song keeps bugging me and it goes: Don't stray Don't ever go away ... I fall into an ocean of you Pull me out in time Don't let me drown Let me down I say its all because of you and here I go Losing my control ... it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye And let all the things you mean to me Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time Tell you why I say its infinately true Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way ... And there's no cure And no way to be sure Why everythings turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart ... Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way ... Its all because of you.
I, on return, keep pleading to my God to please let me stay away from you, and I found His answer on the book I'm reading: "The Lord heareth the prayers of those who ask to put aside hatred. But He is deaf to those who would flee from love".
Yes, I'm stuck on you.
And here goes another phrase: She could love him, even if he never knew; she did not need his permission to miss him, to think of him every moment of the day, to await him for the evening meal, and to worry about the plots.
I don't know how our story will go, I didn't want it to end for now, I want to savor every moment I'm right beside you, thinking maybe I didn't need to own you, for love liberates and I will go each morning believing that you are one of the reasons I still like to live this life even though I so much hate it.
There are a million and one or two words on how I would like to express what I exactly feel, but let me tell this straight... guess what I'm really trying to say is
"I WANT YOU, for keeps. I'm here, still here. This time I'm not leaving, I'll stay even without you commanding it. I'll stay, no promises, but I'm staying, even without you knowing, maybe you'll never EVER know. But I'll stay. I want you. I want you. I like you. I love you"
I asked you if you were leaving, you answered NOT YET. And so until you decided to leave I'll be right beside you, caring for you, missing you day and night, loving you.
I don't even know how or where to start saying this, how I came back to thinking that I still like you, oh F. Yes, shit happens. I woke up today, thinking that I am still capable of staying, and I go through the day thinking maybe I'm just confused, and I don't know why people are blogging on how they feel, and guess what? they're feeling the same way, I don't know why the book I'm reading reflects what I'm feeling! Talking about coincidence, or maybe like what my best friend says if you don't know how to handle a situation read a book, you'll find there the answers you freakishly need.
I don't want to be back or I wonder maybe it's hard for me to be back because I can't accept that I haven't left, even for a moment. And now, things are not normal AGAIN
(how many agains do I have to undergo for you?).
An old song keeps bugging me and it goes: Don't stray Don't ever go away ... I fall into an ocean of you Pull me out in time Don't let me drown Let me down I say its all because of you and here I go Losing my control ... it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye And let all the things you mean to me Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time Tell you why I say its infinately true Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way ... And there's no cure And no way to be sure Why everythings turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart ... Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way ... Its all because of you.
I, on return, keep pleading to my God to please let me stay away from you, and I found His answer on the book I'm reading: "The Lord heareth the prayers of those who ask to put aside hatred. But He is deaf to those who would flee from love".
Yes, I'm stuck on you.
And here goes another phrase: She could love him, even if he never knew; she did not need his permission to miss him, to think of him every moment of the day, to await him for the evening meal, and to worry about the plots.
I don't know how our story will go, I didn't want it to end for now, I want to savor every moment I'm right beside you, thinking maybe I didn't need to own you, for love liberates and I will go each morning believing that you are one of the reasons I still like to live this life even though I so much hate it.
There are a million and one or two words on how I would like to express what I exactly feel, but let me tell this straight... guess what I'm really trying to say is
"I WANT YOU, for keeps. I'm here, still here. This time I'm not leaving, I'll stay even without you commanding it. I'll stay, no promises, but I'm staying, even without you knowing, maybe you'll never EVER know. But I'll stay. I want you. I want you. I like you. I love you"
I asked you if you were leaving, you answered NOT YET. And so until you decided to leave I'll be right beside you, caring for you, missing you day and night, loving you.
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