SACRED. SCARED.

Do we really have to risk something for someone? I mean outside family and friends. I mean someone who you like. We have this idea of liking (or loving, whatever your preferred term to use) someone and even if we don't admit it, we wish, hope and pray to all the gods of all nations that, that person likes us back. What if they don't? What's the point in risking?

When asked, if I ever fell in love with someone, I usually give a yes. But through times, seeing my friends, or others on how they give love, how they treat that someone as if it was another god, I don't think I have felt love at all. I don't get the point of chasing someone, I mean yes I know the chase part, but when I was faced by that situation, I usually give up. I don't want to be a part of that chase, I don't want to run after someone who might actually running away from me for good, and yes I will never know if I don't came running back, but I just don't wanna risk. okay never mind :|

I just think, love is a sacred act that requires patience (which I don't have), and that we don't need to risk all that stuffs for a person. Weird, but what I just said, may not apply nowadays. I mean people say that we lose something to gain some more, like we learn and maybe we won't screw up the next great guy because we now know what to do. But isn't it unfair to the first or the one before that present guy, if that's the case, there is no right guy, everyone is right if we do things right? (got that?) I mean, so kung natutunan na natin yan before or ginawa na natin yung mga magagandang bagay noon sa nauna, pwedeng sya na si right one, diba?

And yes, I'm not making any sense. It's just that, what if the guy I like now can be the next big thing for me. But I still don't wanna move from where I am right now.

"Only dead fish goes with the flow. So swim against the current, and thou shall find thee"

It's just that I'M SCARED. as always.